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2010-02-25T16:24:00.001+08:00

I got a wake up call.

I just realised how this world works.
You do not ask for help,
simply because you wouldn't receive any.
everyone's so selfish,
and you should only depend on yourself.

Who cares that you don't wanna help me?
I rather not do so well than receive any help from you now.

From now onwards, I'm depending on myself.

2010-02-18T16:53:00.003+08:00

i am so mad bored with studying i decided to blog.

ANYWAY HAPPY (BELATED) CNY AND HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! :D

so tml's my first paper - cost and managerial accounting.
i think all the teachers are sadistic,
because they had to set the papers right after cny.
and cny is a HUGE public holiday.
i see i have proven my point.

anyway, me and baby have plans to go m'sia this good fri!
it's to celebrate our first year anniversary.
WHEEEEEE!!
I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BOOK THE TIX!
some friends of ours will be joining us.
i'm mad excited!
hopefully it's gonna come true, and be fun!!

i realised my absence from this blog,
and i apologise for that.
i'm just too lazy to keep this blog running.
so i promise i will at least blog whenever exams comes okay!
(at least i'm bored and this is an avenue for me to rant! TEE HEE HEE!)
not like there's much readers of my blog now anyway,
so whatever.

okay i think i should go back to mugging!
(before that, facebook and some online shopping first! :D)

BYE PERSON/PEOPLE!(:

2010-01-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

At times i just wished i was still in secondary school,
or at least have my group of friends in ngee ann in the same class with me right now.
And it happens to be the time right now ):

2009-12-18T00:00:00.003+08:00

Because of your love,

I'm persevering on.

Because of your trust,

I'm not giving up.

Because of you,

I finally know what love is.

It's been a long time since i last blog!

okay i'm sorry that i have always been so lazy.

anyway it's common tests period,

and it's pretty much screwed up.

i have not much motivation for some reasons.

oh well.

anyway i blogged today cause i wanted to note down what i wrote above.

heh.

nothing much.

bye earthlings.

2009-11-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.

2009-10-14T23:15:00.003+08:00

i think today is the worst day ever.
i prolly said this like a million times before, but yeah.
first my water bottle spilled and wet my bag.
then my earphones spoilt.
then i got lost at outram area and had to walk all the way to chinatown.
then i was thinking of going overseas,
only to realise that it was my wishful thinking afterall.

sigh i'm so damn tired.
i need rest, like seriously more rest.
work is tiring me out.

i'm going to sleep now.
bye.

2009-10-14T00:39:00.001+08:00

Like the sunlight,
You give me life.
Like the downpour,
You nourish my life.
Like the winds,
You free my life.
Baby, because of you,
I feel alive.

I love you baby.

2009-10-05T19:39:00.001+08:00

awesomeness.

2009-10-04T00:57:00.005+08:00

i'm feeling something that i haven't felt in a long time,
this sense of emptiness in me.
i can't exactly describe it either.
when i was in the train and bus coming home,
i had so many things going on in my head.
it hurts, really does.

i started worrying,
thinking if history would actually repeat itself.
i wish we all had all the time we needed in the world.
i wish we had a world without troubles,
a world that we can spend our time doing anything we want,
a perfect world.

for a moment my eyes got watery.
and i felt strangeness in my heart.
an undescribable emotion.
sigh.

anyway,
6th month just past,
and baby got us a ring.
thanks for saving up just to get it for us,
i love you.

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life theres been heartache and pain
I dont know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

Im gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life theres been heartache and pain
I dont know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Lets talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and Im feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

2009-09-03T21:54:00.002+08:00

Did I mention that I'm heading to shanghai for my school trip soon?
I am kind of excited about it.. But the idea of rooming with some random person is really bad.
Imagine sleeping with someone that you don't know. That's just really weird.

So apparently marcus says I have a whiny voice.
And I talked to weehin about it today and he said I'm whiny indeed..
And for the 18 years of my life I have never realize I am whiny.
Like seriously, I don't even know when i'm whiny or when i'm not..
I have no idea what I'm driving at, guess I just don't wanna be labelled as some whiny bitch.

Anyway, I caught the proposal with marcus on Tuesday!
It was f-ing good I swear!
Really, do catch it if you have not!

I love you beth cooper was a really dumb chick flick.
Caught it with weehin today.
Right now I'm with baby and jaycas.
He's helping jaycas with Econs so I'm just sitting here.

Oh did I mention this post is blogged on my itouch?
I'm awesome(:

2009-08-28T15:39:00.001+08:00

i had economical bee hoon for lunch which was so NOT economical.
it was a pathetic portion of bee hoon, 1 chicken wing, 1 luncheon meat and some anchovies.
AND IT WAS $3.30!
luckily it was nice at least.

okay i'm really bored at home.
i'm always blogging about my oh-so-uninteresting life.
i should stop being lazy and head out.

heading to town later with weiling!
then meeting my baby after that(:

alright i'm gonna go back to my ANTM.

BY THE WAY ANTM SEASON 13 IS COMING OUT, AND PROJECT RUNWAY SEASON 6 IS OUT!
DO CATCH IT K!(:

2009-08-26T14:12:00.000+08:00

David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over

yes this is my favourite song right now!
hahaha!
it's really really addictive.
heard it on Miss Universe 2009.
they were performing and it was pretty good!
think it's a pretty old song though.

alright exams are officially over!
end of yr 2 sem 1! :D
i can't wait to get my results.
praying so hard that i do well.

heh.
and baby surprised me with UP tickets yesterday(:
and a band!
thanks!

alright i'm really bored at home.
anyone, shopping?

2009-08-24T13:14:00.001+08:00

i heart jason mraz(:

i think he's underrated!
like seriously.
he's such an awesome singer!
especially when he sings live, it's like fantastic.
i think everyone should listen to his songs,
cause it makes you cooler :D

so anyway wda paper today was good!
but pmkt that day was kinda sucky :/

oh well.
i have been having insomnia lately.
too used to sleeping at like 4am and waking up at 1pm.
so every night before my paper,
when i try to sleep at like 11pm,
it's totally impossible.
and the strange thing is,
THE SONG INSOMNIA KEPT PLAYING IN MY HEAD!

HOW ANNOYING IS THAT??!!

and i have been having weird thoughts relating to the 7th month lately.
like i will think of someone shaking my hands,
or like something crawling out of my blanket,
or when i open my eyes i see something hanging there.
okay freaky and retarded, i know.

blah.
and i swear i heard someone trying to open my door 2 nights back when i was studying!

okay i'm like sleepyyyy.
i shall go nap :D

blaw tml!
last paper!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!(:

2009-08-21T18:27:00.000+08:00

yes i am bored, that's why i went youtubing.
gosh imagine memorising 12 pages of handwritten notes,
it's muthafucking madness okay! ):

this video is damn retardedly funny.

WARNING!!

EXPLICIT CONTENT!

okay i should go back and mug ):
RAWRRRRR!

2009-08-17T17:22:00.005+08:00

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,
cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.
And everytime that I try to get tongue tied,
I need a little good love to get me by.

okay i'm fucking fucking annoyed.
facebook, blogger, and my singtel internet is all failing on me.

take a look at this.

Blogger.

Facebook.

i have no idea what the fuck happened seriously.
i AM angsty.
but i don't give a damn.

sigh lately all the work and all has been stressing me out and out.
besides that, the first paper that i took,
it was pretty bad actually.
i was so hoping to get an A for that.

i was disappointed with myself,
like i could have studied much harder and did better.
i knew i hadn't gave my 100% for it,
and it's really depressing.

and these few days all the sianness that i have,
isn't really helping when your partner is equally sian.
i don't know.
i'm not blaming anyone, seriously.

sometimes i just wish i could escape.

2009-08-13T00:17:00.003+08:00

okay yes i'm ~~fucking~~ bored and that explains me being here.
i have been abandoning this blog for such a long time,
and that's all because I'M JUST TOO LAZY!
each time i wanna blog,
then when i reach www.blogger.com,
i get lazy and decide to do something else.

anyway i have been having diarrhea since morning,
and headache in the afternoon.
baby skipped lecture and dropped by despite his headache!
gosh you are the best seriously.
i love you!(:

hehe okay i should stop that.
OHH AND TODAY AT THE SWIMMING POOL TOILET,
SOME DISGUSTING UNCLE TOOK OUT HIS DICK AND FLASHED IT TO ME!
I WAS LIKE, WTFFFFFFFF!
SUPER TURN OFF!
i took my bag and like shifted far far away.
it's damn sick seriously.
i feel like castrating him.

sigh,
first paper's on friday.
SUCKS TTM.
i hope my gpa doesn't fall too much this sem.

bah.
i shall go entertain myself with.. uh.. staring at books and hoping it will smile and joke with me(:

okay ciao!

2009-08-01T10:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 4TH MONTH BABY!(:

AND

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA BROTHER! :D

2009-07-08T11:34:00.005+08:00

Been quite awhile since i last blogged!
I'm in class now,
and really really bored i swear.
so i will just do a small post.
Heh.

so last sat,
met up with amanda and rena to go for F1 race waitering training at flyer(:
i swear when we heard the pay,
we just wanted to leave.
the agreement slip wrote $5,
then after that he told us min $7.
so don't know which is true.

anyway after that,
rena left with her lover, :D
and amanda went home then to the airport,
while chloe and weida and me went to 'in' cafe or something like that at chinatown.
it's a really really nice place.
went to chill with edmond, alan and jaycus(:

some pictures that we took!

then ytd met up with weida alan and jaycus for dinner at suntec!(:

okay so for those who still do not know,
i'm gonna be starting work in a cafe from tml onwards :D
pay sucks, but i'm just gonna try it out.

oh and baby,
thanks for the cookies you baked!
wheeeeee i love you(:

2009-06-20T22:05:00.004+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEE!

sentosa with leandro and edmond was great!
too bad baby couldn't join us ):

but right now i'm like BURNT!
i'm so gonna spam aloe vera gel like mad.

okay i miss beach volleyball!

period.

2009-06-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

I'm so thankful that i found you.
You are the best damn thing that happened to my life.
The song you wrote,
brought tears to my eyes,
not just any tears,
but tears of joy,
tears of pure happiness.
I love you.
And i give you my promise that i will never leave you.

2009-06-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

Have you ever thought life sucks?
or have you ever wanted to give up on life just because of a small setback?

THINK AGAIN!

this pair of twins, ronnie and donnie, 57,
are the oldest living set of conjoined twins in the world!

apparently they share the same organs and are joined from the sternum to the groin,
therefore, can't be separated.

imagine the troubles they have to go through,
even when it's just peeing!

i was randomly surfing the tv,
and i came across okto channel with this on.
and i thought it was really interesting,
and i should share it with you guys,
especially those who feel that life owes them.

so think again,
because life IS beautiful!

La vie est belle.

2009-06-05T23:15:00.003+08:00

Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat - Lucky

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

common tests next week,
and i'm super unprepared.
save me.

and baby's at camp now.
take care and have fun k!
can't wait to see you!
i miss you(:

alright back to mugging.
ciao!

2009-05-28T12:13:00.002+08:00

watch this!
it's awesome!
i love it totally.

Kara Dioguardi ft. Jason Reeves - Terrified

Lala Lala la la
Mmmmmm mmm
You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world
Full of wrong
Your the thing thats right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrifed
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life

This could be good
Its already better than that
And nothings worse
Than knowing your holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh I only mean it
'Couse its true
So dont you tear
What I've been dreaming
'Couse it keeps me up
And holds me close
Whenever Im without you

You set it again
My hearts in motions
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life, life
In my only life

so this week's e-learning.
man i hate school.
it's a drag.
and i'm afraid my gpa's gonna drop this sem.
my projects are like screwed.
BAH.

i hope i get to go for the shanghai trip.
but on the other hand, i will miss you so much ):
oh well.

i'm going to school later for project.
but the rest are like mia.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

i'm going to nap awhile.
BYE.

2009-05-04T22:15:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
I SINCERELY APOLOGISE FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR THE PAST MONTH OR SO!
HOPE YOU MISSED ME(:

anyway,
people were asking me to blog and all,
but i was just really lazy to post up all the photos of korea,
and super duper lazy to blog.
not that i have anything to blog about.
about korea,
let's just forget it alright?
if you want photos,
come look for me.
HAHAHA! :D

the month has been awesome(:
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

okay nothing to blog.
school's a drag.
projects, tutorials and whatsoever.
i hope school closes down.
swine flu!

bah.

i wanna go for shanghai exchange program!
anyone?

2009-04-03T12:21:00.009+08:00

Day 2

woke up early in the morning and had a great breakfast!

at HAN'S!
it kinda look like the singapore one, except it served jap/korean cuisine.

so for breakfast,
we had KIMCHI, and toast and eggs.

AND ABALONE CONGEE!

apparently it's green because if you use the grind fresh abalone and cook it,
it turns green.
in any case, it tasted really good(:

after that,
we headed down to the TEDDY BEAR MUSEUM!
gosh i love that place.
it's damn nice and cute!
unlike the usual historic museums which were damn boring.
photos taken have alot of reflections due to the glass.
so sorry about that :/

Titanic!

Tarzan!

Mona Lisa!

fyi this is like a fashion show.
so the bears actually move.
and there's colour lighting.
but my bro only took this photo when it stopped moving and off the lights =.=

indian costume! HAH!
i'm not being racist here alright!
(Clickable)

and this bear.
look at the eyes!
it's made of hundreds of carats of diamonds!
(Clickable)

Louis Vuitton bear! (Clickable)
it raised USD 193,000 at a charity auction.
MAI SIAO SIAO!

god i should open a similar museum la.
then i will be damn rich.
HAHAHA!

stopped at some place to take photos of the cherry blossom.
damn pretty!
(Clickable)

next stop was to some place to buy honey.
and looked at traditional village of korea.

LUNCH!
had some bbq thingy(:

after having a damn full lunch,
it was time to climb some VOLCANO!
YES YOU HEARD ME, VOLCANO!!

the view of it from the bottom.

my brother acting cool xD

my mother and some korean girls!

at the top, it's actually caved inwards.

then we climbed all the way down to the seaside there.
and we had LIVE ABALONE AND SEA CUCUMBER!
abalone was fine, but the sea cucumber was damn gross la!
no pictures because i was busy eating and forgot to take a photo of it :/

this photo is non-edited alright!
but cool isn't it?(:

hai2 nu3

they are known as hai2 nu3, or translated as "sea women".
they actually go into the sea to pick abalone, sea urchins and all the other sea creatures to sell them as a form of living.
apparently the tour guide say they are usually widows,
aging about 50-70 years old.
but they are still damn strong la!
weather so cold,
they just swim in it,
without an oxygen tank somemore okay!
PRO LA!

anyway,
after that no more photos for the day.
no idea why.
hah.
sorry for blogging damn slowly.
i'm really lazy to post up so many photos.
hehehe.

oh and i saw this carl's junior advert on the train that day.
damn funny!

"Some like it long, but most love it thick!"

2009-03-30T11:25:00.010+08:00

Day 1

Arrived at Seoul, Incheon Intl' Airport early in the morning,
like 6 plus am korea time, which is 1hr ahead of Singapore.
took asiana airlines,
and they kept repeating that they won top airline of the year 2009.
sheesh.
guess it must be the first time they won,
since you don't see SIA doing that.
hah.
the plane wasn't too bad though.
just that travelling hours was damn long.

and also think the economic crisis had hit the airline industries quite badly.
the plane was damn empty la!
i took like 3 seats on my own!
WAHAHHAHA!

here are photos for the day(:

me, mummy and bro!
taken outside the airport.

our first meal in korea!

this was some hot pot thingy,
but they use some square pot thingy that's pretty shallow,
so the soup not a lot.
and one thing in korea is that they serve kimchi EVERY MEAL!
BREAKFAST, LUNCH AND DINNER!
eat until damn sian.
lol.
but it's not too bad la the food there(:

daddy and mummy!

after lunch,
we took a domestic flight down to Jeju island.
and fyi,
Jeju is not that cold, like 10 degrees,
but the wind damn strong, making it damn damn cold!

cherry blossoms in jeju on the way to our first scenic place - some waterfall!
(Clickable)

it's a bridge with like dragons and other animals' statues on it.

on the bridge with bro.

some building, forgot what it is.
lol.

this is how traditional houses look like in korea.

next we went down to this windmill behind lotte hotel.

the flowers there are damn pretty!

sea's at the side only.

aparently, this looked like where the korean dramas were filmed at.

this biscuit thingy was damn huge.
so i decided to take a photo of it(:

it shows the direction and distance of each country from the place.
not sure if it's true though.
(Clickable)

next we headed down to the seaside to look at stones that were formed naturally.
Jeju island was formed by a volcano eruption,
so black stones were everywhere.
and the interesting thing about this place is the shape of the stones.
take a look!

look at the stones, round shape one!
(Clickable)

this one is like poles.
(Clickable)

alright that's it for day 1.
too many photos already.
i shall post day 2 in the next post.
heh!

Stay tune!

2009-03-29T10:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
I'M BACK FROM KOREA!
MISSED ME?

heh.
i'm in the midst of uploading photos and editing some of them.
so it's gonna take awhile alright.
i mean 8 days.
gosh alot of photos okay!
but think i will be too lazy to upload everything also.
lol.
stupid brother still ask me upload on facebook then tag him.
and i still gotta consolidate the photos in my dad's camera.
zzzzz hell lot of work to do.
hah!

anyway the trip was good.
and 1 day before the trip i received my results,
made me happy too!
heh.
shan't talk about it again!
i will blog on the korea trip on the next post.

STAY TUNE!(:

xoxo

2009-03-20T07:47:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOOO!
I'M IN A REALLY GOOD MOOD TODAY!

YES RESULTS ARE OUT!
AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I KNOW HOW ACHIEVEMENT FEELS LIKE!

it's like i worked hard last sem,
and my efforts were paid off.
but because of my first sem,
overall still pretty bad.

but oh well.
MELVIN YOU GONNA WORK HARD AND DO BETTER! :D

once again,
congrats SAM for your excellent results!
and for disturbing my sleep at 7am when i only got to bed at 3.30.
hah!

right now it's 7.49 and i'm pretty awake.
guess the results kind of have a stimulative effect on me.

alright i shall go breakfast with my parents in awhile.
CIAO!

2009-03-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

my apologies for not blogging!
been (really) busy these days!
for some of you might be aware that i was working at the IT fair,
it was literally madness!
so many people!
and i was so damn bloody tired from all the talking and standing.

but luckily my colleagues were great,
most from poly now.
pretty cool.
heh.

and i rewarded myself with a audio technica earphones ytd!
HEHEHE! :D

i wanna get myself more tops and berms!
shopping tml!

okay i wanna go watch how i met your mother.
CIAO!

2009-03-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

youtubing is the best when you are bored.
and want to get things of your mind.

watch this video.
damn funny and retarded!

2009-03-09T13:29:00.003+08:00

sigh.
this is such a bad day.
giving out flyers and all.
i think i said thank you more than 500 times.
later still gotta go down amk to finish giving out,
then go jurong to punch time sheet.
argh.

these days weren't that great anymore.
sometimes i just wished it didn't happen.
maybe i just shouldn't dwell on it,
and pin too much hope on it either.

2009-03-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Looked down on
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-03-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

i'm hoping.

i should stop expecting.

2009-03-07T23:13:00.004+08:00

i'm really really bored.
so i thought of what i should actually learn, or improve on myself.

1. Be less sensitive. I think i'm always OVER-SENSITIVE. And that's really really bad because i always don't feel a sense of security and all.

2. Trust people. I should learn to trust people, regardless of project mates or my soulmate.

3. Think less. Keep myself occupied when i need to distract myself from things.

4. Learn diving, cause i think it's really cool.

5. Improve volleyball skills.

6. Learn sailing/windsurfing.

7. TRY TO INSTALL THE DAMN DOTA THAT FAILS! AND LEARN HOW TO PLAY IT(: so that at least i have something to do when i'm bored. NOT JUST BLOGGING!

8. Stop thinking that life sucks.

i wanted to stop at 10.
but i can't think of anything else to write.
oh well.

and have i told you guys i'm going to korea in like 2 weeks time?
doesn't matter,
now i did.

sigh today's damn boring.
i miss you so much, somehow.
bah. whatever.

and 8 hours of volleyball at sentosa ytd gave me BAD SUNBURN!
but it was fun, so was karaoke!

2009-03-07T11:27:00.002+08:00

"maybe,
he's just not that into you."

2009-03-05T10:10:00.002+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrongs that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful, Baby
You're the one who held me up
And never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't see
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand, I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, You gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm greatful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
Oooh

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't see
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark
Shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you!

(You were my strength when I was weak)-You were my strength!
(My voice when I couldn't speak)-Oh when I couldn't speak!
(You were my eyes when I couldn't see)
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

Hey, Yeah!!!

(You were my strength when I was weak)
(You were my voice when I couldn't speak)
(You were my eyes when I couldn't see)
You saw the best there was in me!!
(Lifted me up when I couldn't reach)
(You gave me faith cause)you believed

I'm everything I am because you loved me
Ohhh
I'm everything I am...
Because you loved me

gosh.
i want someone to sing this to me!

2009-03-04T22:07:00.005+08:00

gracia tagged me.

Format:

I ____ you.
You have a nice ______.
You make me _______.
You should _______.
Someday I will ______.
You + me = ________.
If I saw you now I'd __________.
I want to ________ you.
I would build a _______ just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.
Love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)

I am falling in love with you.
You have a nice smile.
You make me wanna kiss you gently.
You should smile more.
Someday I will ask you to be mine.
You + me = Love Birds.
If I saw you now I'd hug you tight.
I want to hold you.
I would build a castle just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be i'm yours.
We could cuddle and talk endlessly under the stars.
Love,
Melvin

(P.S. You are the bestest thing that ever happened to me.)

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apple has a new product!
some keyboard-less lappie.
do check it out!
pretty cool, though i would say the idea isn't that awesome.
seems quite stupid to me :/

2009-03-04T15:01:00.001+08:00

i'm so bored at home and i went around surfing youtube.
and i found this video.
it's damn farnee and retarded!

alright i can't wait for sentosa this fri!
i hope it doesn't rain or get cancelled(:

2009-03-03T13:32:00.004+08:00

while waiting to meet glenn since he's so slowwwww,
i decided to blog about ytd(:
WENT SENTOSA!!
with dominic, bertram and cyril!(: (: (:

and we actually played 4 hours of volleyball.
having several games with some strangers who were really good.
but i guess that's how you learn!
after that was movie he's just not into you at cathay.

alright i'm lazy.
photos!

me and dommy!
i swear we weren't posing!

me, cyril and dom.
i swear i have very sleepy eyes ):

group photo!(:

2009-02-28T11:52:00.005+08:00

GOODBYE EXAMS!

HELLO WORLD!(:

2009-02-26T23:05:00.003+08:00

sigh.
mugging for programming today was madness.
drained all my energy,
and for the rare moments that i feel stressful.
it's killing me.
some parts that i still don't exactly get it.
i just hope i wouldn't just get a pass for tml's paper.

oh well.
i'm tired.
gonna go shower then sleep.
bye.

2009-02-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

chengwen sent me this photo.
look close enough and you will see 2 rainbows!
CLICKABLE!

since exams started,
time has been flying past quickly.
like seriously,
damn damn fast.
within a short span of 3 days,
i'm left with 1 paper!
YAYNESS!!
AND BMGT IS OVER! WHEEEEEEEEEE!(:

now i'm left with pba this coming friday.
wish me luck people!
i think i'm gonna need it(:

okay melvin's hungry.
IN SEARCH FOR FOODDDDD!

2009-02-22T18:04:00.002+08:00

i finished econs past year exam paper!

anyway watch this vid of Barrack Obama.
damn funny.
but you gotta watch the Beyonce Single Ladies video first.

Enjoy!

2009-02-22T15:34:00.003+08:00

took it for the modelling job(:

okay i'm really bored of studying!
i can't wait for fri to faster arrive.
then can get my long break.

and melvin MIGHT be going Japan this holiday.
hopefully i get to go(:

alright i should be back on my econs.
ciao.

2009-02-21T02:31:00.002+08:00

hah!
for the very first time,
i went to apply for this temp job for modelling.
basically it's just taking photos at the beach and all la.
seems kinda easy money to me :D
hopefullY i get it!

and i submitted this photo as they requested - topless.

hot not?! :D

PS: Sorry gina and glenda, cropped out you guys xD

2009-02-20T01:53:00.004+08:00

A FUCKING BEETLE JUST

CRAWLED UNDER MY

FUCKING WARDROBE!

2009-02-19T22:57:00.004+08:00

i was woken up by a phone call at 10.20am today.
it's prolly the first time i woke up so early since study break.
it was the job agency,
asking me to go all the way down to jurong east just for an interview.
and the thing is,
i can't even remember what job i applied for.

so at 1,
i made my way down with glenn accompanying me.
it was just a really short interview,
asking me what was my cca blah blah blah.
and telling me that due to economic crisis,
my pay would be relatively lower than usual.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

and anyway,
went home after that to mug abit.
then headed down amk hub for movie with sam and ulfred!

finally caught The Curious Case of Benjamin Button!
in case you have been living under a well,
this is the poster.
and you can youtube the trailer at youtube.com

movie plot was pretty good i must say.
it's really really different from your usual movies.
but it was like almost 3 hours?
so be prepared to stick your butt down and sit still.

anyway, i shouldn't reveal much about the movie.
do catch it and tell me about it.
it's basically about a man being borned old and grew younger.

Benjamin Buttons when he was young.

mid age. looking hotter liao.

and finally,
this is my favourite part because his fucking awesomely CUTEEEEEE!

okay la it's brad pitt(:

and this is the girl he fell in love with.

Cate Blanchett, whoever she is.
and i certainly think she's chioer when she's getting older.

the both of them together on bed. i'm jealous. thank you.

okay that's about it.
today was a bad studying day.
i shall continue bmgt tml.
good night!

2009-02-19T02:29:00.000+08:00

yes it's 2.29am and i'm not asleep.
i just got a sudden urge to blog this out.
I WANT MORE SINGLETS AND POLOS AND BERMS.

okay that felt good(:
nights people!

2009-02-19T00:16:00.007+08:00

CNY 0'9

alright it's been awhile since i last blog.

for starters,
let me show you this vid that i saw on tawan's blog.
IT'S TOTALLY FASCINATING!

cool right?!
i'm so amazed by it.

so anyway, these days were spent mugging and more mugging!
i'm sooooo hardworking lor!
completed econs and poa already.
now left with HATED bmgt and pba!

tml gonna start with bmgt.
it's so boring i swear i will fall asleep.

and today when i woke up,
i had a major shock.
thank god it SHOULD be fine.
only glenn will know what i'm talking.
bah.
don't bother asking cause i won't disclose.

and i have been sleeping late and waking up like almost 1pm.
i think my body's clock is mad.
but i so love the nighttime.
every single night,
the peacefulness,
the serenity,
it's just so wonderful.
i love the way that i can do anything i want,
without anyone interupting.

alright i feel like cooking something to eat.
tata!

2009-02-13T16:02:00.003+08:00

random photo that i found.

M for Melvin.

Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people.

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Melvin.

2. A four Letter Word : Male.

3. A boy's Name : Matthew.

4. A girl's Name : Maybelline? sudden thought of the shampoo xD

5. An occupation : Mad Scientist. HAHA!

6. A color : Magenta.

7. Something you'll wear : Mooks Tee.

8. A brand: Mooks.

9. A food : Maggi Mee!

10. Something found in the bathroom: Mop.

11. A place : Mauritius.

12. A reason for being late : Met an old friend.

13. Something you'd shout : Madness!

14. A movie title : Matrix.

15. Something you drink : Mountain Dew.

16. A musical group : Maroon 5?

17. An animal : Mud Puppy.

18. A street name : Mavis Street.

19. A type of car : Mercedes Benz.

20. The title of a song : Make It Mine.

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AND PEOPLE!
I FINALLY BOUGHT MY ADIDAS TEE! :D
okay i guess i didn't rant about how much i wanted it before.
but all along i wanted it just that i didn't say(:
spared you guys okay!

and my rudyproject shades are here!
wheeeeeeee!
so nice(:

and and i bought a pullover from zara! :D

okay enough.
i need to continue studying and stopped getting distracted.
shall go cook noodles first in any case xD

MELVIN'S A PIG!(:

2009-02-12T16:04:00.003+08:00

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

2009-02-08T18:51:00.001+08:00

super super shag today.
training was, for the first time, SO SO INTENSE!
we trained with the seniors today, so yup.
quite shoik but damn tiring.
1km x 8
at 80% intensity.

rawrrrr!
i need to sleep.
dinner now.
ciao!

2009-02-07T00:27:00.002+08:00

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

2009-02-04T22:57:00.002+08:00

i'm a little troubled.
been wondering if things are/will work out for the both of us.
you being so busy,
and me being sensitive all the time.
sigh.

i'm thinking a lot because i'm afraid.
i'm afraid of lots of things.
i'm afraid that we wouldn't work out.
i'm afraid of you leaving me.
i'm afraid of our huge age gap.

i miss you every second i don't see or hear from you,
and it's been awhile since i last felt that.
please know that i'm trying my best to make things work,
and i need your love and care at least.

i don't know if you do read my blog.
but i hope so.

i'm falling for you.

2009-02-03T18:41:00.002+08:00

okay i had a really bad day.
pba was really screwed up.
anqi's group presentation just left me in awe.
and benjamin's group aren't that bad either.
my group was horrible i swear.
luckily we get to re-present this fri.
i hope i don't do badly this sem again.

*cross my fingers*

and i went to cut my hair.
shaved the sides.
look like a punk now.

and these days i have been having headaches.
i hate it.
brain cancer? i hope not.

2009-02-03T12:07:00.001+08:00

i'm bored.
doing pba.
and we are so gonna die for it.
it's screwed up.

and we are looking at some phobia list page.
retarded shit.

i hate school.
period.

2009-01-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

tears flowed,
as you walked away.

2009-01-30T11:16:00.003+08:00

so many things going on in my mind right now.
projects, exams, relationships blah blah blah.
it's horrible.

couldn't get to sleep last night,
and when i did,
i kept waking up.
was thinking alot the entire night.
and wondering if i did make the right choice.
i hope i don't regret it, yet.

2009-01-22T00:49:00.001+08:00

yes!
within a short span of 2 days,
my bmgt project is done!
i must say that it's a pretty job well done.
from nothing to 24 pages of words.
hard work put in from everyone.
*pats*

now i feel so much more relax and better,
especially after meeting the teacher to show her the project.
it's 12.50am right now.
i'm heading to bed.
tata.

2009-01-20T09:26:00.006+08:00

today is tuesday, 20th Jan 2009,
6 more days to lunar new year eve,
AND MR MELVIN HAS 2 TESTS TODAY!
OF WHICH ECONS IS 20%.
RAWRRRRRRR!!

i hate school now.
i hate group projects.
i hate what i'm studying.
i hate alot of things in school.
never understood why i went business,
furthermore, business IT.

oh well.
enough of ranting.
i'm bored in poa lesson now.

some photos from the BA post event meeting/dinner.
had jap buffet at himawari.

and 2 random photos from gina's birthday.

and lastly!

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A BAD ASS SLUT PHOTO! HOTTTT!

2009-01-13T09:57:00.005+08:00

HELLO READERS!
BEEN AWHILE SINCE I BLOG!(:

i'm sorry if you miss me,
but well,
as you know,
mr melvin is a busy man.
but it's always worth waiting :D

so BA D&D on friday was a success!
all thanks to the organising comm, and of course everyone!
and everyone was looking good that day(:
AND I WAS LOOKING SO OH-MY-GAWD HOTT!!
alright i'm kidding.
most of the girls were like as tall/taller than me la.
UNFAIR WITH THEIR HEELS!
RAWRRRR!!

so anyway!
here are some photos(:

part of the comm!

glenda in her pretty dress!

leeyen, ulfred and me!

THAT WENDY WON 2ND PRIZE!
A CANON DIGITAL CAM!
SO UNFAIRRRRRR!!

me, wendy & that evil kana/bolster/candle!

me, glenda, sam & JQ.
SAM SO TALL THAT NIGHT LA!
CHIO BU!(:

i'm looking so hideous in this photo.

and finally,
presenting to you,
THE ORGANISING COMM!

2009-01-07T15:56:00.002+08:00

What's your name?: Melvin Tan

How old are you?: 18

You've been on a date, Right?: duh.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope ):

If not, Why not?: dating only.

THIS OR THAT:
Flowers or candy?: candy
Candy or teddy bear?: eeyore(:
Out to a movie or renting a movie?: renting a movie
Candles or darkness?: darkness
Romantic or joking?: romantic
Hug or kiss?: kiss
Sex or making love?: making love

MORE SPECIFIC:
If he/she got you a stuffed animal, what would you want?: EEYORE!
If he/she got you flowers, what would you want?: dried roses
If he/she got you jewelry, what would you want?: simple plain ring
Have you ever stayed up all night waiting for him/her to call?: not all night, but long enough
Do you ever think about him/her?: duh.

IN A BOYRIEND/GIRLFRIEND I LOOK FOR:
Eyes;: yes
Hair;: yes
Body type;: YES!
Smile;: yes
Personality;: DOUBLE YES!!

5 THINGS THE PERFECT GUY/GIRL WOULD DO
1;: surprise me at my place
2;: do small simple things for you
3;: talk about the future(:
4;: small brainless arguments
5;: love you unconditionally

5 THINGS THE PERFECT GUY GIRL WOULD -NEVER- DO
1;: make you wait downstairs their house forever
2;: not reply your text messages when they should
3;: compare you with others
4;: self-centeredness
5;: indecisive

YOU AS A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND
What's the sweetest thing you've ever done?: many(: i'm a good boyfriend :D
What's the worst thing you've ever done?: slapped and shouted.
Do you think you make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?: HELL YES! HAHA. okay la not that bad at least(:
If you were the opposite sex would you date yourself?: yes.

THINK ABOUT THE PERSON YOU'RE DATING
What's so good about him/her?: cheekyness
Are you just in it for looks?: nope.
Would he/she be freaked out if they knew how you felt?: no.
Do you hope he/she reads this?: i know he will. or at least i think so.
How long have you known each other?: a month plus?
Do your friends know him/her?: knows his existance at least.
Where is the perfect date spot?: my place(:
If he/she has something on their face will you tell them?: yup. PIMPLE ABOVE YOUR MOUTH :D
What makes a date terrible?: self-centeredness
What makes a date memorable?: hugs and kisses. and a long walk(:
On your way home would you rather: walk.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Told someone you loved someone and meant it?: yes
Stayed up all night waiting for a phone call?: same question again??
Snuck out?: nope
Kissed someone?: yes
In the rain?: no. i don't like getting wet.
In an elevator?: yup.
In a car?: yes
On an airplane?: nope. not yet.
In a bathroom?: yes
Cheated on someone?: kind of.
Been cheated on?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
True love?: yes
Love at first sight?: maybe

OTHER:
Do you want to get married?: depends.
Do you want kids?: NO WAY!
If so how many?: -
If so, when?: -
Do you like soft kisses?: yup
Do you like kisses with a lot of tongue?: if you are good at it. haha!
Do you like hugs?: yesssss(:
Do you like to cuddle?: obviously

2009-01-06T09:47:00.005+08:00

i'm in a state of confusion.
so many things are going on in my mind.

i wonder,
why make myself go through this,
when every single time it just takes away part of my flesh.
and i wonder,
who are really my friends? who are my real best/close friends?

i can't even think straight now to even blog.

i hope training tonight take things off my mind.

2009-01-05T18:35:00.005+08:00

i know this is really really overdued.
but let's just pretend it's 1st Jan 2009.
so here goes.

HAPPY 2009 FOLKS!

so nye's was great.
glenda invited me to her dad's company countdown dinner at orchard hotel.
and she wore a dress!
pretty babe(:
and i look FAT that day.
so right now, my resolution for the year - TO SLIM DOWN!

alright some photos(:

after the dinner (which we left early),
we went to tcc beside thai embassy to meet belinda, gina, wendy, shuqing.
sitting there just chatting and laughing was great(:
about slightly after 12,
we decided to head back to belinda's place to stayover.

and i swear i got a shock when i alighted the train.
me and gina were standing in the middle of the carriage, talking.
then suddenly,
the people from the sides stood up and shouted happy new year.
it was quite funny.
think i gave the "huh" look. xD

and we coincidentally met shuxia at tpy!
so she came along with us.
then we just chat and slack throughout the night.
no photos though,
cause that gina lazy to update!
RAWRRRR!

NEXT YEAR WE SHALL DO IT AGAIN K! :D

and melvin was a happy boy on sunday(:

now i gotta do this thingy cause gracia tagged me =.=

1- Each player of this game starts off with 20 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

2- People who got tagged need to write a blog of their own 20. weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.

20 weird thing about me:

1. i'm queer. period.

2. i can eat alot, but not in one meal.

3. i'm a himbo. or at least that's what people say.

4. i wish i was skinnier. (quoted from gracia)

5. i'm a vain pot.

6. i only take photos of my right profile, cause i think i look better.

7. i do flirt, but not when i'm attached.

8. i love wanton mee. and ajisen.

9. i hate spring onions, and i wish my lover will remove them for me(:

10. i'm secret-free. ask me anything about myself, and i will tell.

11. i choose to believe i'm at least above avg looking :D

12. i enjoy making new friends.

13. i'm an acjc wannabe.

14. i do cry sometimes, even in front of people.

15. sleeping and eating is my fav hobby.

16. dragonboating is my new love(:

17. i buy branded clothes during sales only.

18. i think vagina is gross. (or at least those gracia showed me. yucks!)

19. i just finished watching little nonya, and it's a little disappointing.

20. i hate kids.

i'm not tagging anyone. cause i'm plain lazy.

2008-12-31T11:28:00.003+08:00

finally, it's the last day of 2008.
yes, i have been waiting eagerly to write this post.
a post that sums up this year, 2008.

2008,
has been good and of course bad.
perhaps the year that seemed worse than others.
it was a year that much tears was shed,
but also a year full of great surprises.

best thing that happened to me?
probably to get together with W.

and the worst thing?
the same i suppose.

memories with him was good,
and i know i can still remember lots of them though it's been awhile.
but the bad memories?
i choose to forget most of them.
regrets of getting together with him etc.
and lots of if.

IF we weren't together,
we could still be the bestest buddies ever.
IF we weren't together,
i wouldn't have felt horribly down.

it's all IF,
and IF we weren't together,
i wouldn't have known what love is,
i wouldn't have known what happiness is all about between love birds.

i guess everything we do,
something positive does come out of it.

also,
getting into ngee ann wasn't what i expected.
it could have been better,
but i just gotta bear with it.
sometimes i just tell myself,
if i didn't get into ngee ann,
i wouldn't have gotten to know people like Gracia.

alright,
enough of the negative issues.

some positive ones.

i had the bestest bestest birthday party ever!
all thanks to my lovely friends.
especially glenda and sam.
they were the ones who were there for me throughout my sec sch life,
and even till now.
and not forgetting the rest who helped celebrated my birthday.
you guys were awesome!
i was this close to tearing.
HAHA!

christmas was spent eventfully too.
just hang out with sec sch friends.
gosh i miss them.
sec sch friends are the best, best-er, bestest!
a night filled with joy!
and us spilling out our dirty little secrets.
the log cake from jq was great too(:

envoys camp was another event that i can remember pretty much.
gotta know people like celia and yina.
toilet buddies.
crappy buddies.
it was one of the best camp i have ever been to!
just full of fun and nonsense!
BNNs FOR THE WIN!

To Glenda: Thanks for every single big/little things you have done for me! You have been a great president, perhaps the best leader i have seen till date, and also the BESTEST BESTEST FRIEND EVER! You never fail to cheer me up, and working with you for every event was a great experience gained. Let's hope the BA gathering in 2009 be a SUPER-F-ING SUCCESSFUL ONE! LOVE YOU!

To Sam Koh: Thanks for every every thing! BFF FOREVER!! HAH! and i enjoy mugging with you! Full of crap and nonsense, always making me smile(: thank god you are in ngee ann, made me survived. more mugging sessions to come along in the coming 3 years or so! :D HUGS AND KISSES!

To Wenjie: Thanks for being such a lovely kor(: always letting me bully! and also not forgetting the many many treats. hehe. buffet lunch one day k! i treat! MUACKSSSSSS :D

To Glenn: GLENNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU!! XOXO. HAHA! yes, my best friend and supper buddy! thanks to you, i can bitch for all i care about others. and whenever i'm down, you are there to support me. though you are really bad at cheering people up, but i know you care(: RAWRRRR I LOVE YOU FATTTTTTYYYY :D

To Everyone: Thanks for being there for me (if you did)! Really really appreciated it! My heartfelt gratitude to everyone!

Alright,
that's about it.

Let's hope 2009 will be a awe-tanstic one!

HAPPY 2009 PEOPLE!

2008-12-30T23:48:00.001+08:00

i know i posted this before.
but just have a sudden urge to post it again.

Mariah Carey - After Tonight

I look at you looking at me
Feels like a feeling meant to be
And as your body moves with mine
It's like I'm lifted out of time

And time again
Patiently I've waited
For this moment to arrive

After tonight
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Will you return to love me
After tonight begins to fade

I feel your touch caressing me
This feeling's all l'll ever need
With every kiss from your sweet lips
It's like I'm drifting out of time

Alone will tell
If you feel the way I feel
When I look in your eyes

After tonight
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day

Time
And time and time again
So patiently I've waited
For this moment to arrive

After tonight
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Baby will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day

After tonight begins to fade

alright i'm really tired from today's training.
nights people.

2008-12-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

training today was pretty intensive.
damn shag and tired.
and my back muscles are aching.

i wanna get this oar!(:

2008-12-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

PS: Celebration with Jiayan, Junqiang, SiangJoo, Steph, Leeyen, Sabrina and Joyce was great!(: Next year clubbing/pubbing k! :D

P/PS: Thank you all for the christmas gifts!

PP/PS: Thank you sis for the kenneth cole cologne! :D

Have a blessed christmas everyone!

2008-12-23T10:32:00.007+08:00

gosh,
i think dragonboat and kayaking ytd really tire me out.
slept 12 hours straight.

so ytd,
sentosa with the girls was fun!
there was glenda, belinda, gina and jiayu.

and i went kayaking for the FIRST TIME!!
SUA KU I KNOW!
BUT IT'S SO FUN!
ESPECIALLY TRYING TO CAPSIZE THE REST!
HAHAHA!

and now my arms are aching ):

SOME PICTURES!(:

SEE GINA IS SO HAPPY TO TOUCH MY BODY(:

i love this picture(:

ALL SET FOR KAYAKING!

aftermath of kayaking, a little vball and frisbee in the sea.

weird pose,
but nice background(:

i swear glenda was preparing to kick the ball right into the face of the photographer - gina.

guess the body?

the five of us!(:

me, gina and THE EVIL-NA.

i know i'm cute. thank you(:

SHAG!
belinda bought the bolster. HAHA!

these are only some that gina sent me.
alot of unglam photos but she didn't send!
some with jiayu also.
heh.

yesterday was fun, fun and more fun! :D

2008-12-21T21:44:00.002+08:00

dragonboat today was awesome!
think i might like it(:
but training is like 3 times a week,
so abit errr...

after that went down to sis's place to slack.
napped actually.

alright sentosa tml!
VOLLEYBALL! :D

2008-12-18T22:50:00.004+08:00

haven't blogged about my monday-wednesday fun!
alright monday,
i was slacking at home the whole time,
then evening time,
glenn jio me to watch twilight.
since sam has been telling me how awe-tanstic,
i decided to give it a chance.
(originally i found it pretty kiddish)

and indeed!
the movie was quite good.
AND THE GUY AND THE GIRL SO HOT!
ZOMGGGGG!!
alright. random.

tuesday went for BA meeting at beatty.
I SWEAR I HATE MR SINGH.
HOW I WISH I CAN STAB IN RIGHT AT THIS HEAD!

on a lighter note,
went for Another Crazy Christmas with glenda and belinda!
it was as good as last year! :D
and i urge everyone to go buy tickets from sistic right NOW!

PICTURES!

look at that belinda cheng la!
so NOT DEMURE!

then on wednesday,
glenda and i went to belinda's place to slack.
literally slack i tell you.
and CRICTISE UGLY/GOODLOOKING people on friendster/facebook.
HAHA!

Pictures!

alright. off to watch charmed!
tml swim and project then ikea with glenn! :D

2008-12-15T12:45:00.001+08:00

MY 300TH POST!

alright random.
i seriously need to do some christmas shopping!
it's one more week to christmas!
rawrrrrr!

AND MELVIN HAS ULCER AGAIN!
*(%*&$&^#$%^#!

2008-12-14T23:00:00.004+08:00

grandma's birthday today.
had a big big feast!

i'm so bored.

2008-12-12T23:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

so dinner was at sis's place.
she and ian(bro-in-law) prepared a wonderful feast for us!
steak and lamb were even better than the outside ones!
and there were caesar salad and hell lot of mash potatoes.

then i had hoegaarden beer!
i only drink hoegaarden's beer cause it's simply the best!

alright take a look at the photos!
quality of photos are really really bad,
taken by my htc cam which totally cmi.

and this is the cake i got from canele!

there's gold on the cake if you can spot!

i swear this is the most expensive cake i ever bought,
but also one of the best i have ever eaten!
it's so so chocolatey!
and it's my favourite DARK CHOCOLATE!
YUMMY!
though i think what made it so expensive was that small spot of edible gold.
lol!

so sinful!
gotta go swim and run more(:

2008-12-11T12:47:00.003+08:00

"I know of at least two distinct three-way relationships within which the partners (seem to) have all the love and consideration in the world for one another. The concept of halves, of there being one and only one other person you can love in your life, is outdated, when the broader relationship landscape is ever-changing. I firmly believe there is room within each person to afford to love more than just one other man - or woman - possibly even equally. It's only a matter of how willing you are to open yourself up and share your life."

i came upon this article on trevvy.
it's really interesting and got me thinking.
this is just a segment i extracted out.

my first thought was - impossible
my last thought? definitely impossible.

i can't believe people would think of three-way relationships.
will it EVER work?
the writer mention that there's definitely room for more than one person in your heart.
i agree with that,
since i have splitted my heart into many parts,
for my family, friends and lover.
but getting into a three-way relationship?
that's a no way for me.

imagine at the movies,
getting three tickets instead of two.
and then in the movies,
you are seated in the middle,
and you get to hold two people hands.
that's really WEIRD.

and the worse thing,
having sex?
it's like a threesome!
or with more partners involved - ORGY!

i guess i'm still really traditional in monogamy relationships.
i figured it's only right that i give my all to just one, not FEW.

alright,
that's just my point of view.
so tell me, what's your take on it?(:

Disclaimer: I'm not criticising the writer or anything of that sort. I admire him for his courage and also his really good writing skills.

2008-12-10T15:54:00.002+08:00

RAWRRRRRRR!
I CANNOT MICROWAVE FOR NUTS!
ATTEMPTED TO COOK THE MUAY OTAH,
AND AT FIRST IT WAS JUST NICE,
BUT I FIGURED LET IT COOK LONGER IN CASE NOT COOK,
THEN IT TURNED OUT SUPER OVER COOKED!
SO CHEWYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

2008-12-09T23:33:00.003+08:00

i'm really bored.
that's why i'm blogging for the 4th time today.
bro taught me programming just now(:
i feel so much more enlightened now.
hah!

did i mention i'm sick?
i vomitted last night ):
and meesed up my toiletttt!
rawrrrrr!

and i'm going for safra's dragonboat orientation next sunday with ulfred!
excited!
if i like it i might join the team! :D
let's hope all's well.

alright sleepy.
think i'm gonna sleep soon.

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR GOSSIP GIRL EPISODE 13!
RAWRRRRRRRRR!

2008-12-09T21:51:00.001+08:00

it was the first time i saw someone purchasing condoms.
kinda interesting i guess.
okay random.
bah.
i'm bored.
just got back from dinner,
and i'm supposed to be studying programming but am not!
watching little nonya now.
nice!(:

2008-12-09T19:55:00.000+08:00

apologies from me to you.
took me quite awhile to change the picture on my blog.
the previous picture was really hideous.
this is so much better, and refreshing(:

dinner soon.
ciao!

2008-12-09T17:29:00.002+08:00

studying alone at srgn grdns coffeebean was great(:
productive i must say.
did programming today.
sigh i swear it's damn boring and it makes me wanna sleep.
and worse is, i don't understand quite a number of things.

anyway,
there was this super cheapskate uncle i saw at coffeebean today.
he came in,
took few cups of ice water and drank,
slipped some sugar packets into his pockets,
(must be thinking no one saw but I DID!)
then walked out.
SO SO CHEAPO!
NEVER EVEN BUY ANYTHING FROM THERE!
tsk.

Some singaporeans are really disgusting.

alright,
i so feel like going swimming right now.
evening sun's pretty great.
but i'm sick,
so should i?

ponder ponder.

2008-12-05T20:16:00.006+08:00

I wanna make you smile,
Whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I wanna do,
Is grow old with you.

I'll get you medicine,
When your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh it could be so nice,
Growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you.
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you.

I wanna grow old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you.
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you.

I wanna grow old with you.

i swear my heart melted when i heard this song(:
lyrics are f-ing beautiful.

XOXO,
Melvin

2008-12-04T23:35:00.005+08:00

Completed

1. MAEC
2. POA
3. BMGT E-Learning
4. POA E-Learning
5. POA Quiz (37.5/50 retarded shit =.=)

Am i hardworking or what?(:

so studying today with sam and ulfred at united square's starbucks was pretty productive.
despite the horrendous noise that the staffs were making from 5-7pm.
it was free drinks today(:
i bought myself a iced green tea latte at first,
then at 5,
went to queue in the ridiculously long queue under the rain,
and got myself a hot green tea latte(:

after that was dinner at Wee Nam Kee's chicken rice,
then headed down to paragon to do some shopping(:

i need money to do my christmas shopping, seriously.

Santa santa, all i want for christmas is MONEY! :D

2008-12-03T23:43:00.001+08:00

Mariah Carey - When I Saw You

Soft heavenly eyes gazed into me
Transcending space and time
And I was rendered still
There were no words for me to find at all
As I stood there beside myself
I could see you and no one else

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be the same

Only once in a lifetime love rushes in
Changing you with the tide
And dawn's ribbon of light
Bursts through the dark
Wakening you inside
And I thought it was all untrue
Until there all at once I knew

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be the same

With no beginning and
Without an end
You are the one for me
It's evident
And your eyes told me so
Your eyes let me know...

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be the same

snort.

2008-12-02T21:45:00.004+08:00

colour up my life, and i will fall for you.

went sch late today.
had poa extra lessons,
which didn't really help i guess.

after that,
went down to marsiling with gracia to collect her couple tee she bought online.

1. MARSILING IS SO FAR AND ULU!
2. WE WAITED FOR 50 MINS BEFORE THE BLOGSHOP PERSON ARRIVED!

ANNOYEDDDDDD! ):

what a bitch.

after that,
we went down to causeway pt to study at starbucks(:
but as usual,
we have short attention span.
so about an hour and a half through,
we decided to go shopping.
IN TOWN! :D

so we took a train down to orchard and began shopping at far east!
i bought something today again.
A FLOWER PRINT SHIRT!

HEART HEART!

have always wanted to buy something like that,
and today finally bought it.
cutting and all is really good,
guess i will keep it for chinese new year though.

lately been spending really alot.
just bought 2 berms that day,
then bought the cookie monster tee online,
and colour contacts online.

AND THAT MEANS THAT MELVIN IS BROKE YET AGAIN.

sigh.
i need a savings plan.

2008-12-02T01:22:00.003+08:00

[ONE] Who was your last text from?
- greg.

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?
- friendster - tcc central

[THREE]Your relationship status?
- single ):

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
- yup ):

[FIVE] What is your current mood?
- blank.

[SIX] What's your brother's name?
- kelvin.

[SEVEN ] What's your favorite color(s)?
- red, black, white, blue.

[EIGHT] Where do you wish you were right now?
- i'm where i want to be.

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
- totally!

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
- not exactly.

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
- EATTTTTTT!(:

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
- nope.

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like.
- none.

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
- no idea. last last week?

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
- yup. maybe.

[SIXTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
- many many things.

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- greg.

[EIGHTEEN] What are your favorite songs?
- after tonight - mariah carey. and many many others.

[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?
- this.

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?
- myself.

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
- fbt? carrefour(:

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone in the past week?
- yeah. think so.

[TWENTY-THREE] What is your lucky number?
- no idea.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Who are your friends that are closest to you?
- glenda, sam, glenn, wenjie.

[TWENTY- FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
- good.

[TWENTY- SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
- nope.

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Who are you thinking of right now?
- no one.

[TWENTY- EIGHT] What should you be doing right now?
- SLEEPINGGGG(:

(TWENTY-NINE)If you could wish for something over a birthday cake right now what would it be?
- to eat for the rest of my life like mad and not get fat(:

[THIRTY] What are you listening to?
- nothing.

[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
- no idea.

[THIRTY- TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
- none.

[THIRTY- THREE] Do you act differently around the person you like?
- slightly i guess.

[THIRTY- FOUR] What is your natural
hair color?
- brown.

[THIRTY-FIVE]Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- greg(:

2008-12-01T18:18:00.001+08:00

Is it

1. "melvin has become a black pig"
2. "melvin has became a black pig"

i was trying to figure it out.
but still don't know.

so it became,

"melvin is a black pig."

(:
(:
(:

2008-11-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

i feel like you cheated on me.
i'm disgusted.

2008-11-24T22:09:00.001+08:00

OMG I'M SO FUCKING FUCKING PISSED!
BOILING OKAY!
I HOPE YOU AND YOU ENTIRE FAMILY DIE IN HELL.
BUT YOU ARE SUCH A BIG FUCKER YOU PROBABLY WON'T EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO GO HELL.
GO EAT SHIT FUCKER ASSHOLE!

2008-11-24T20:17:00.002+08:00

[ ] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan/turn black easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I’ve had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[x] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

School/Work

[ ] I’m in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job.
[ ] I’ve been fired.
[x] I’ve skipped school.

Embarrassment

[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve peed from laughing.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I’ve had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Mexico.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve been an abuse victim.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been Skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[x] I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[?] I’ve played chicken.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.
[ ] I’ve been bungee jumping.

Relationships

[x SADLY YES!] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I love to flirt.
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[x] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out of my/someone’s house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve run a red light.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
[ ] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[ ] I’ve been arrested.
[ ] I’ve shoplifted

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I’ve passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I’ve smoked weed
[ ] I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
[ ] I’ve snorted cocaine.
[ ] Popped E.
[ ] I’ve inhaled .
[ ] I’ve done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] Ive been anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[ ] I’ve woken up crying.
[x] I’ve cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I see/have seen a therapist/counselor.

Death and Suicide

[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I’ve planned my own suicide.
[ ] I’ve attempted suicide.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x ARCHIES? :D] I collect comic books manga.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own something from Hollister Co.

Political/Social Attitudes

[ ] In general, I don’t like people.
[ ] I’m a feminist.
[x] I’m outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I’m Democratic.
[ ] I’m Republican.
[ ] I’m liberal.
[x] I’m independant.
[ ] I don’t like Bush because he is dumb.
[ ] I don’t like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I’m religious.
[ ] I dress fairly modestly.
[x] my attitude is “If you’ve got it, flaunt it.”

Random

[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I’m a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have/had “x”s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in aliens.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[ ] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.

[x] My answers are totally honest.

2008-11-23T17:12:00.004+08:00

i miss you b.
but you are already the past.
we will never talk or see each other ever again.

melvin, be strong.
no more tears.
it's time to move on.

YEAH MELVIN!(:

2008-11-22T11:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY WENJIE! :D
HAVE FUN IN HONG KONG!(:

2008-11-21T23:44:00.003+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

this is so true.

as usual,
i was on cloud nine,
then i fell flat to the ground, hard.

2008-11-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

i'm not in the mood for anything right now.
i just wanna note down all my thoughts.

you made yourself very clear.
you can't give me what i want,
and our expectations are different.
the past 20 mins i cried.
and as i cried,
i thought to myself,
i have already given in my best,
but it was simply one-sided.
i have tried to make things work,
but it was me, alone.
it was all my wishful thinking,
never yours.
i gave myself so much hope,
for the both of us.
but it just came crashing down on me.
i'm really tired.
loving you is really torturous.
for the past 2 month,
it has been.
it's my fault.
it always is.

i wish i never loved you.

2008-11-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

have you ever heard of anyone tearing in a cartoon movie?
now you did.

2008-11-20T08:08:00.002+08:00

too much hopes, too much disappointment.

2008-11-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

fan4 jian4?
perhaps.

2008-11-18T15:37:00.001+08:00

I HAVE LOADS OF ULCER IN MY MOUTH AND IT'S FUCKING KILLING ME!

2008-11-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

i'm really amazed that you can always come up with something to make me happy.

sometimes i really wonder if you don't know,
but that's pretty impossible.
perhaps you are just acting,
that you don't know how and why am i feeling lousy.

talking to you for that hour was really interesting.
and i know i'm not attracted to you physically,
it was something special,
something really different.
i mean it.
you are the 2nd one to make me feel this way.

i don't know why am i blogging all these out.
you won't even read them.
you know nuts about my rollercoaster life.

alright, on the lighter note,
red camp's this wed to friday!
emcee duty on thurs and friday.
hopefully i don't disgrace myself.

time to sleep.
night souls.

.

2008-11-15T23:48:00.003+08:00

i expected it.
i expected that answer.
why did i even bother asking?
it just makes me hurt even more.

after tonight.

2008-11-15T11:46:00.004+08:00

a lonely friday night,
i just lied on bed,
feeling so cold.
as the tears flow down,
i thought of the times we spent together.
nights after nights,
will you remember?
i'm having so much doubts.
it's a mistake,
a terrible mistake to fall in love with you.
you carressed me so tenderly,
and pulled me closer towards you,
but baby after you go,
will you return to love me?
you won't.
i'm starting to believe in it.
each time you claim you are very busy to drop me a msg,
i take it in my stride.
but now,
you are doing it so often,
and i just had to lie to myself that you were busy,
really busy.
i know it myself that no matter how busy i am,
i will still think and msg the person,
but i just choose not to believe that.
now i'm starting to believe.
i tried not expecting anything from you,
but it's hard.
i can't do it.
it's really weird that i feel so much for you.
i have known you for only a short while,
and i barely even see you much.
it seemed like when i was with win,
that kind of feeling - indescribable.
i can't do much,
not alone.

i love you, b.