i really wonder what am i feeling now.
is it a tinge of sadness?
or is it a tinge of fear?
i don't know.

i have slowly put the past behind me,
and moving on from what i left behind.

and you, perhaps you aren't whom i love.
perhaps you aren't the one for me.
that friday was really special,
and it did give me some hope.

but now i have lost it.
i really wonder if true love exists.
and are people really that genuine.
perhaps everything is just a facade,
and all a lie.

i want to run away,
from everything in this world.
i don't feel happy anymore,
and i wonder if i will still be.
putting up a happy face is really tiring,
and i really hate it.

i can't stop bitching about some people,
people who don't deserve my presence.
people who are so irritating they ought to learn how to shut up.

sometimes i just wish i get knock by a car,
and forget all those memories.
at least i will have a new life,
and get to see who truly care for me.

alright i should stop here.
maybe i should stop seeing you,
to protect myself,
and give myself some time.

MELVIN; 2:42 PM