i'm really afraid.
i'm scared.

i don't know why.
i really don't wish that you like someone else or is attached already.
i'm just holding on,
to that glimpse of hope.

sometimes i really wished you told me that you don't love me anymore.
then perhaps i can really move on.
but maybe.
i would still love you till ever.

i'm feeling so tired now.
physically.
i tried going to sleep,
but all that happened was images of you.
i can't brush it aside.

sigh,
the past 2 months.
lots of sleepless nights.

i wish for all these to be gone, forever.
i wish i had no feelings,
and that would be really fantastic.
i want to be numb, seriously.

i'm crying.
yet again,
after so many months.

sometimes i really find myself weak and useless.
i can't even handle such stuffs.
and all i know is just to cry.

i want to smile.
i want to laugh.
i really could give up the world for you,
but would you? and would you appreciate?

love me,
love me not.
i know i do at least, alot.

MELVIN; 1:01 AM