it has been a hella long time since i last blog.
and i hoped i haven lost my 12369782109008 fans who read my blog each day(:
wasn't really busy,
but just wasn't INSPIRED to blog at all..

feeling kinda tired now.
since i only slept 4 hrs last night..
stayed over at jasper's place with winfield.
and they refused to let me sleep since they were so awake.
end up i still manage to fall asleep for awhile.

in the afternoon went swimming with jasper.
it has been YEARS since i last swam,
so u can figure how much of a sucker i am huh.
instead, i went to tan(:

I NEED MY BRONZE TANNN BACKKKK!

flying off to shanghai in 3 days time,
though i gotta reach the airport on wed.
midnight flight.

OHHHH ANDD IM GONNA WATCH CRAZY CHRISTMAS TML!
i'm hella excited about it.
it seems really good(:
gonna go tan, then go to the concert.

anyway,
this time i decided to blog after i read this guy's blog i came across.
it was really inspiring and it made me think.

it was a post about people being fake,
being so plastic and trying to act just how great they are on the outside.
but in fact VICIOUS on the inside.
they are unscrupulous simply to get things they want,
and some who are assholes who go around cheating on their date.

it made me think that is this world really that cruel?
are there in fact people who are truthful and honest?
can i trust everyone who i meet?
do everyone like me?
or the majority hates me?

these questions raced through my mind as i read the post.
i have totally no idea.

referring to the post,
it had mentioned that i might not be drop dead gorgeous,
but i have the personality to make up for it.
this is god damn true.
one can be ugly on the outside and pretty on the inside,
or vice versa.
of course the saying that outside doesn't matter is bullshit.
ask yourself,
would you want to go up to some guy whose face seemed like it was smacked 8164091486 times by a car and is probably missing one eye and has a crooked mouth?
the answer would definitely be NO.
HELLO? the world is superficial.
looks might not be everything,
but it is something.

moving on,
i thought about this.
i had been backstabbed several times, or maybe MANY times,
and it does sucked.
and these were from people i trusted,
people i treated as FRIENDS.
the thought of being betrayed is fearful,
and it happening is even worse.

but oh well,
life still goes on.
and people can continue to bitch about me,
for i don't give a damn(:

ending off this post,
i still have to say...

I LOVE MYSELF!

*kisses and touches myself all over*

...

MELVIN; 10:03 PM